The other morning I suddenly remembered something I had gone through that was difficult, that kind of thing that when you’re walking through it you can’t imagine it getting better. I was overwhelmed with gratitude as it was sinking in how many troubled waters that my God has delivered me out of. May I not forget the wonder of the rescue and the grace and the healing that He has provided for me time and time again.
Lord, You have brought me out of darkness time after time. You come and get me and bring me to Your light and truth. I often forget how many times Your faithfulness has marked my story. There have been blackened valleys of anguish that I couldn’t even fathom ever getting out of. And yet over and over again You breathe new life into my soul – my fragile and in desperate need of You every second of my life – soul.
I don’t know that I’ll ever feel strong and sure and unafraid, but then again, You are a miracle worker. Maybe these broken places keep me close to You – hanging on, clinging to You for my source of light. Maybe my fear makes me see how mighty to save You really are. Maybe my frailty displays Your power when You demonstrate Your strength in me. Maybe the miracle I wait for is already happening as I remain in You because I am so desperate for You. Maybe I don’t ever want to be so relieved of my struggles that I forget that Your love and mercy are what keep my heart beating with hope and belonging – a firm and settled foundation.
You are beauty and light and I know You love me. You love me!
Whom have I in heaven but You? And there is none upon the earth that I desire besides You. My flesh and my heart fail; but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. Psalm 73:25, 26